I am a addict.

Devotional by Paula Sanders Blackwell

Hello my name is Paula Sanders Blackwell and I’m a recovering addict.

If we are real with ourselves everyone is recovering from something. I am a food addict.

I was completely confused about how I was filling my life with bad food. Food filled my loneliness and it filled my celebrations.

I am also a recovering control freak. All these things I would often try to control but realizing I had no control over anything.

But God…

I discovered the power of prayer. I began to lay my burdens down and guess what? I left them there. I didn’t worry over them anymore. I didn’t stress over the consequences. I just decided one day to give it to God. Many times we go to God in prayer and then worry about it too. I realized I couldn’t do both that was wasting my energy.

The lesson I learned was to take it to the lord in prayer and leave it there. I put it out of my head. I quit sweating myself. My anxiety level decreased.

Today, I do not stress out over many things anymore. I do have to remind myself not to allow people, jobs, money or work to stress me. But it’s a lesson I learned the hard way.

Choose today – you’re either going to pray or stress. I vote to pray.

Lesson learned.

God’s Reminder-

John 14:27 (ESV)
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.


2 Replies to “I am a addict.”

  1. I just read your testimonial it is absolutely tremendous filled with passion and certainly filled with conviction. I like the fact that you would you willing to be transparent and open up doors for other women the way they see themselves and the way you shared it is incredible I look forward to reading your book and some other stuff that you write as a writer myself who has not been published once or twice this is ideal so keep up the good work stay in God’s hand and don’t ever give up cuz you’re standing on the shoulders of black women from slavery all the way down to now. We need more women like you and I’m sure you would take nothing for your journey. Thank you for your journey. To God be the glory.

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